Escapee

The desert in the heart grows barren by the day

Where yellow buttercups once grew

Scavengers are picking the bones bare

What happens to the part of me that lies there?

No one can hear these wounds weep

I have shut my ears to them, too

But before I leave my memories behind

Sanity I must find.

I will be strong

And tomorrow will be a new day

But will it really be courage or cowardice

To turn my back on all of this?

I bury the truth in a gaping hole

Not enough sand to cover the grave

Maybe the dust of time will make me forget

That we ever met.

Regret in each step that takes me away

Guilt in the backward glances

As I take my chance to live a lie

Till the day I die.

Tirade of the derided

Must I worry what you think of me?

Who’re you to tell me you know better?

Have you been to the end of the world?

Why didn’t your God answer my letters?

What are you so smug about?

How dare you judge what I do?

Do you even know why we are here?

Does it make me bad if I’m not like you?

Do I sympathize ‘cause your life is worthless?

Why should I pick money over soul?

What do I care if you hate my guts?

Am I to weep if you condemn my goals?

Can I ask you to moralize elsewhere?

Who said you can cluck your tongue at me?

Do you know who matters at the end of the day?

Why must you give me advice for free?

Have you always lived so passionlessly?

Do you know what it’s like being true?

Where did you learn all your wrongs and rights?

Did I tell you it must suck being you?

Paradise

Wavering in the blue darkness
Wrapped in a sliver of the moon
Wild blossoms entwined in each tress
Her scent makes the willows swoon


Stepping back in the inky shadows 
Quivering lips and straining eyes
He journeyed infinite crests and furrows
For just a scent of her many sighs


She knew for eons before he arrived there
He would cross time that held them apart
To touch her warm footprint or a wisp of her hair
And seek a place for his soul in her heart


Endeavoured to find paradise all his life
He has pursued the key fervently
At last he finds her after such strife
This time he would not let her flee


The hard planes of his countenance
The obsidian glitter of his shoulder
Tormented her from the first glance
She is as enraptured as he is of her


This once she would not disappear
This once it would be as it was meant
This once he would not lose her
In the depths of clouds unspent


In a slight wave that stills every motion
Within reach of his outstretched hand
She brings soft light into the dark ocean
That has eternally submerged his land


Infinite clouds become infinite clarity
In a lingering embrace of infinite grief
Giving him what he had wanted an eternity
She wanes in his arms with a smile so brief


Upon finding paradise and losing his moon
He cries unlike one who has received his answer
And the spell of nirvana is broken too soon
He finally knows his paradise was her

Think of me

When your hair gets damp from winter fog

When you come across a famished stray dog


When you journey up a pine covered mountain

When your step sinks into snow that’s freshly fallen


When you pass a stall filled with Oriental charms

When the wind wails eerily in torrential storms


When you forget to clip your toenails for days

When you visit a mall and get lost in the maze


When Whiskey with water is ordered at the bar

When the rainbow pulls up after a sunny shower


When you bump your knee or nick your thumb

When a drive in the rain makes your fingers numb


When you recall in winters how cold my feet would be

When our being together was the only time we were happy


When yellow blossoms overwhelm amaltas trees

When your heart aches with the weight of memories


When you rummage through the debris of our dreams

When the mind feels like it’s coming apart at the seams


When you can forgive this disguised heart, finally

Just that one last time, think of me.